No one understands

Before I start the poem, I’d like to say that I’m not an ungrateful or pretentious person who is trying to show people that I have faced the hardest of struggles. I’m extremely thankful and happy for what I have.
I wrote this poem when I was going through a really painful experience that was filled with confusion and uncertainty. Having said that, I’m grateful for that experience because I came out as a stronger and better person. Now to the poem.

I don’t want pity, I don’t want sympathy
I don’t even ask for people to understand me
But maybe, if they didn’t talk behind me
I wouldn’t feel down and cry this easily

It really hurts to see them hate on me
I feel like giving up, but I know that’s just not me
Those baneful words scream loud inside my head
I try to ignore it but I keep hearing what they said

They see me struggle, they see me in pain
And yet, they don’t believe what I’m saying
I’m trying to climb out of this dark deep hole
I’m fighting this battle, all on my own